Feeling it all

I do not want to feel everything any longer. I find that I need to hide behind a slight smile; fooling myself and others; being “okay” because okay seems good enough right now.
My life; body, mind and soul feels bloated with emotional turmoil that needs to subside, even if it is just for a few hours of joyful times right now.
I feel guilty having happiness in my life when others are suffering and in constant despair but I know for my own good, and the help I give to others, I must stand tall and strong.
Talking to friends and family about the difficulties in the past 2 years helps my soul.
Taking care of myself plays a role as I walk daily down the same path to clear my mind of much cluttering thoughts.
Think of ways you can bring yourself a happy time today so that you are full of loving thoughts and able to help others feel your positive energy; putting joy into life again.
What are you doing to take care of yourself today?