Details of a flower

Spending much time with the details in life that are important, or maybe it is my perspective on how puzzling life is today in this moment.
I put many connections into things I create and it feels as if I am connecting the dots as I try to understand.
As a child I felt puzzled most of the time, and now as an older adult the discontent and disconnect is stronger.
Am I the only one who does not know what really is going on in our world today? Or are we all trying to fill in the blanks on life for the past 3 years?